Out Of My Cocoon

It's hard for me to get started up again since I've been gone from here for so long. But it's finally time for me to be back. I said a long time ago that I wasn't happy with what I was writing here. I felt like it just wasn't me anymore. I felt like I had lost all of my creativity. So I took some time off until I finally really felt like I could do things right again.

It was kind of like a caterpillar going into a cocoon for a rest, and to grow, and coming out as a butterfly. I locked myself away from all things about blogging. I made one short little attempt to come back that still didn't feel right so I closed myself back off. I missed everything terribly, but I had to do it that way until I began to feel right again.

I never got tired of blogging, but I simply lost the things I wanted to say. When that happens, it's time to take a little break. But now that I'm writing this post, I feel a little rusty. That's actually the feeling I was hoping for because I'll be looking at things with a slightly new perspective now.

I also pulled myself away from nature for that time. I kept myself indoors, and did a bunch of geeky computer stuff. I wanted to pull myself completely away from the things I loved so I could appreciate them even more when I came back to them.

Finally, I looked up at my computer screen and felt that emptiness that comes from hours of playing meaningless video games and doing other solitary computer things. I used to love that stuff when I was younger, and I still do. But a person needs to exist in the real world as well. Nature is the ultimate real world.

Nature and being outside exploring is better than any meaningless video game. You can touch and feel nature and the world around you. Video games are just fine, but you never get that great feeling that reality can give you. And blogging urges me on to go out there and explore the real world around me.

Blogging is itself a wonderful extension of the real world, full of real people and friends from around the entire world. Part of the ultimate reality. You can't get that from a video game or some other solitary activity. Blogging about nature and similar things is what I love the most. I'm glad to be a part of that. And I'm glad to feel like I'm truly back.